As a minister who has a specific focus on healing and spiritual warfare, it’s safe to say that not only are my wife and I in the game, but we are often on the front line. As anyone who has competed or been in combat, you know that once you’re in the game, you must be prepared for all things –you have invariably become a target in the fight. I am grateful that, because I am filled with the Spirit of Jesus Christ, I have the full power of the Creator of the Universe living inside me, and nothing is greater or more powerful than that. Greater is He in me, than is in the world. I have been given full rights and privileges to use His Spirit and His power and I fully intend to at all times.
This past week has been a strange one indeed. We had the opportunity to minister to a couple people and see some unique healing and miracles in action. We had been invited directly into the belly of the 10/40 window to visit both India and Pakistan and preach the Gospel. And then, we had the fight come right to our front door.
Sunday night, after a three hour healing session with an amazing young woman, my wife and I had some down time to talk. She brought up to me suddenly in conversation, that the Holy Spirit was prompting her that she may be pregnant, and we needed to take the steps necessary to confirm if this was the case. It was very early on, but immediately, the problems set in. She had begun to experience symptoms of pregnancy, yet it was accompanied by severe pain, bleeding and cramping. This one incident kicked off one of the most confusing weeks in our married life. Over the next few days, symptoms began to increase. I will spare you the details, but suffice it to say, that she visually confirmed that she had indeed miscarried this pregnancy.
My wife was healed by God of a condition known as Endometriosis, which is a series of cysts on the uterus which create large amounts of scar tissue. This causes pain and infertility. Over a two-year period, she had received prayer, changed doctors, and was consistently on the mend. During a routine visit, her doctor confirmed to her that all of the scar tissue was gone, and her body was fully healed. There was no real medical explanation for this. They wrote it off as just a thing that happened. What we do know, is that two years earlier, her doctors were discussing the possibility of a full hysterectomy at 28 years old, due to the damage. Not only did God heal her, and answer the prayer, but also proved how serious He was by giving us a son, who is now approaching three years old.
Let me be very clear. Life begins at conception. Period…and in fact, so does the spiritual fight for that same life. When my wife was 7 months pregnant with our son, she was hit by a drunk driver. The incident sent her into a pre-term labor which ultimately, could have ended very badly. This fight went our way as we made it through a long period of bed rest, long days and plenty of worry. This was long before we fully received the truth about Divine Healing and what is available to us. We relied on God to carry us through this, and He most certainly did. During the time, we had so many friends bring us food and necessities, and we were smart enough to save up some money which carried us through the loss of wages. We truly have a huge measure of God’s favor.
In the last year and a half, as I had been training in healing ministry and learning about dominion, authority and the keys to the Kingdom that I am rightfully entitled to, we have begun to get into the game and take the fight to the powers of darkness directly. Since we have authority, dominion and victory already, its only a matter of enforcing it and make it reality. We don’t heal and minister because we like to do it per se. We enjoy it immensely to set people free. But more so, we do it because Jesus deserves what He rightfully paid for!!
The problem with Spiritual Warfare is that once you throw your hat into the ring, you declare yourself as a target. Once you become a target, you better be ready for Satan to rumble. He will send his minions to come after you, and you must not only resist, but overwhelm and destroy in response. Plainly stated, there is no other way.
My two-year old has learned how to minister divine healing, by watching me do it. He knows how to lay hands, what commands to give and he doesn’t hesitate. Because of it, he has gotten a few people healed without ever fully realizing it. God looks for a willing vessel, and in these cases, my son was it. Not to mention, that he truly has child-like faith. No church or pastor ever wrongly convinced him that it can’t work. He has no reason to doubt whatsoever. Truly an amazing thing to see.
My wife and I were not actively planning or trying for another child. We were just going about ministry and daily life, when this whole situation came out of nowhere. While it was early into this pregnancy, most people would write it off as just something that happens. Life begins at conception, because the person’s spirit is already in place. In the Spirit, there is no time or distance. Therefore, a person doesn’t have a junior spirit. There is no junior Devil, nor is there a junior Holy Spirit. There is real, tangible activity going on in the supernatural around us at all times, like it or not. Just because one chooses not to believe it, doesn’t mean it’s not true. It just means they don’t want to believe it. The problem is, this leaves too much of the physical, carnal world in the mix, as people search for a worldly answer to why certain things happen the way they do.
The simple truth is this. Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy. The greater truth is, that I refuse to back down whatsoever! I have made it clear that I am in the fight and I will not defer from it. I will heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers, cast out devils and preach the gospel, and I don’t care who likes it. I have a bigger mission now, than at any point in my life, and I WILL do my job. I have made it clear that I when I have a child, I will raise that child as a warrior. He will know the ins and outs of the spiritual realm, and he will be victorious. Satan tried to kill my son via a drunk driver, and God vetoed his move. In this case, Satan landed a hit before we even knew it.
Because Satan is afraid of the power of God, he knows that he can’t win. He relies on keeping Christians powerless through wrong doctrine, by keeping people wrapped up in themselves to where they don’t pay attention, keeping us at odds with each other, and via calculated sneak attacks. Had we known that there was a pregnancy we would have fought for it, and we would have won. Had we known, we would have raised the dead and put this baby back into it’s rightful place. Had we known, I would be telling you a different story. But with all of that said, here is what I do know…
First off, I unequivocally DO NOT, in ANY WAY, WHATSOEVER blame God for this!!! This is NOT His will, His plan, His best for me, nor is He growing me up, teaching me something, or getting glory from this. Any belief in any of these reasons here for sickness, disease or suffering is a doctrine of devils straight from the pit of Hell. I will not take a display of Satan’s murderous nature and try to deposit it into God’s account. I serve a real, true and loving God. My Father is a Good Father, and He DOES NOT fail me…EVER! I refuse to believe the commonly held lie in the modern church that dismisses life’s tragedies by saying, “Well, God is in control…” No!! God put the boundaries in place, started the wheels in motion, and told US to subdue the Earth, and to make His will on Earth as it is in Heaven. God put things in place, and left US in charge. Not only do I endorse that belief, but I make it a point to actively live that belief.
Satan knew that I would raise up a warrior, and he took the child out before we even knew about it. While we are sad at the loss of what could have been, we understand that bigger spiritual factors are here at play. Satan murdered our unborn child. Whether it was an intentional, direct attack, or a simply a byproduct of his fallen world handiwork makes little difference to me. Quite frankly, I don’t care which it was. All is do know, is that there is now going to be a price to pay for this. As a man, I take the situation differently than my wife does. Women have a different worldview when it comes to pregnancy and situations like these. For me, this was a direct attack on my wife and an attack on a child. Both of which, I am not standing for.
Matthew 14 states this concerning the death of Jesus’ cousin, John the Baptist…
His head was brought in on a platter and given to the girl, who took it to her mother. 12His disciples came and took away the corpse and buried him; and they went and told Jesus.
The subtle message that people mostly miss, is that two sentences later, in response, Jesus heals the multitudes. The concept of “Spiritual Retaliation” takes place in a part where most people just breeze past. In other words, you take out one of mine…in return, I am taking out thousands of yours! People often ask how you resist the Devil and his attacks. One piece to the puzzle is this. If it’s too costly for him to come at you, he will move on to easier prey. He wanders around looking for something to devour. He will move on if he knows he will get his work devoured in return a thousand times over.
Much like in sports, when you start building a reputation for yourself, other teams and people start scouting you, studying you and building notes and dossiers on you. In the spirit realm it’s no different. If Satan has reason to believe you will not only answer him, but go nuclear from the outset, he tends to switch his focus elsewhere. Along the way, don’t think for one minute that you won’t be tested to see what you’re made of. This is part of it. You will be pushed, you will be poked at and prodded. Demons will see if your reputation is legitimate. From the opening bell of the fight, go nuclear and rain Holy Fire on all works of the enemy, all the time. As outlined in the book of James, perseverance and never backing down is the key to victory.
As I mentioned in a recent Facebook post, I am not a Christian who lives in defeat. I am not broken, messed up, vile, wretched, oily rags or any of the other self-deprecating things we like to call ourselves as Christians. I am a warrior, born again and made a new creation directly by the Boss Himself. I WILL NOT dishonor the blood of His Son, by saying that I am not good enough for it or that something in me or my nature is too big or strong to be overcome. Jesus willingly paid for me with the currency of His blood, and gave up EVERYTHING so that I could have it all. I don’t take that lightly, nor do I take it for granted. I belong to Him totally, completely, and without exception. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me!!
This situation doesn’t mess me up or break me down. It gives fuel to my fire to fight. It’s going to cost him a lot for this. You took out one of mine. Let’s just say, I will respond…He won’t know when, where, how or to what degree, but it’s coming. He doesn’t need to be afraid of me. But he will be afraid of the Jesus inside of me. His eventual eternity will be much more painful than mine.
So, at this point, I just ask you to pray for my wife. Like in war, occasionally you take a hit and you have to rebuild and respond. We are taking time for her to recover, and we have had some powerful prayer sessions in the process. I am not worried, scared or intimidated. I am alive and amplified! Now that she has been attacked personally, she has awoken to the battle and is ready to fight too. Satan made a big mistake in waking her up. She is ready to collect on this debt and is on fire inside for the Lord. Naturally, she took things hard and dealt with the emotions involved. Fortunately, there is always hope and always victory in Christ and healing is already in motion.
A final sidebar I would like to mention is this. In healing ministry, I have heard many people say that prayer and ministering healing is not really what God wants. I have been told by several that God gives us doctors and medicine, and healthcare as His way to heal us. Now, understand that I am not necessarily opposed to doctors or medicine. But I ask this question. If doctors and medicine are God’s chosen way to heal us, why do they charge for it? Why are there so many people who can’t afford it, or who lack access to it? Why do medications have oppressive side effects that are worse than the illness they treat? If doctors are to model Jesus, why do so many of them have dismissive, cold bedside manners? We treat them like God, and treat their words as Gospel. Then, we get mad at them when they act like it.
It also irks me that in a given illness, people will spend hours, days, months and years going for treatments, therapy, doctor visits and prescriptions. Yet, when a 30-second prayer doesn’t the yield immediate intended results, they are ready to write it off as a failure. This IS the fight! Sometimes you have to claw it out for what you want, and break through the resistance. Miracles don’t generally just spontaneously happen. They must be enforced! Our culture gives up way too easily sometimes.
I am not against doctors. Many are wonderful, amazing and compassionate people. I am not against medicine, or taking care of one’s self naturally. I believe they are part of God’s mercies to all of his people, be they believers or not. But I am amazed at how many people ignore the Word of God in this reference. It’s time to re-awaken to the truth.
Because we were unaware of what was going on, I suggested to my wife to see her GYN doctor so that we could confirm what was happening. Again, this came on suddenly, so we just didn’t know what to make of it. I like to get a medical record of a situation, then when it gets healed supernaturally, I like to have it documented as well. Because of the short notice, my wife had to see a physician assistant who in her visit, dismissed her, cut her off while talking, and basically wrote off everything about her symptoms. She wanted to just prescribe medication and wash her hands of it. Funny, if God gave that to us, it doesn’t look a whole lot like the care and compassion Jesus modeled for us. Again, on the record, I am not against or opposed to doctors. We just really need to re-think who we are in Christ, and start believing Him more than we currently do. However, I will leave that subject for another day’s discussion.
As of now, I wanted to write this article to be fully, 100% percent transparent about our journey in healing ministry. In full disclosure, we occasionally lose some. Our victories far outnumber and outweigh our losses, however it’s always the losses that you focus on. I don’t ever mean to take the victories in Christ for granted. But there is something about the sting of defeat that makes you snort like a warhorse going into battle. There is a certain empowerment found in failure, should you choose to embrace it. Like many in the church today, I will not crumble and give up the fight. I will still continue to give people the truth, heal the sick and set the captives free. Life does indeed start at conception, and as you see, so does the fight between the Kingdom of God and the Kingdom of Darkness. The world is groaning, waiting for the Sons of God to manifest themselves, and that is what we are working towards being. Not because it glorifies us or our ministry work, but because quite simply stated, this is what He paid for. I will serve Him all of the days of my life, honoring Him with that understanding! Boom Goes Yeshua!!